I don't know why I let this pain and suffering go on.
I never learn, I never let the time pass to the Dawn.
And still I wait for him to ever sort of notice me.
Even though I know that after what I did it will not be.

I scrounge around in every place to find the remains of me.
But all is lost and sifted through my pain of eternity.
I'm fighting with my mental state and it's taking the greater win.
My sadness and my guiltiness is seeping out from within.

I'm going to have a feast tonight.. A feast of my own will..
My wine will be a water glass.. Each bite will be a pill..
And as I take each bite and drink that's when I seal my fate.
And when somebody notices it will still be too late.

This feast shall take some time but I'm waiting patiently..
One by one they will go down and soon be part of me..
I will not fail this time like I did in the past in fear..
'Cause after I am full that's when my problems disappear..

I feeling an emptiness inside that wasn't there before.
It's scaring me and making me hope that soon I won't hurt anymore.
It's midnight now and everyone here is almost in their beds..
I hope that they sleep well for me, my sleep is up ahead.

I wander to the kitchen to the cabinet above.
Eyes full of tears, heart full of nothingness, not even love.
One by one I choose a bottle hoping that I will see..
Something that's as potent as my pain that can kill me..

I'm going to have a feast tonight.. A feast of my own will..
My wine will be a water glass.. Each bite will be a pill..
And with each bite and drink I take I fill up with despair..
The pain will stop of losing him and send me to the air..

There's nobody here I'm leaving behind that gives a damn about me..
I'll show them just how strong I am when they wake up and they see..
I wish that I can see their faces when time passes by..
They'll never ever understand or care that I have died..